Therefore I am Yours | Billie Eilish - Watty Awards 2022

57. FAME OR FAMILY

Jordan POV

So there was no tragic twist and I didn't just magically wake up from a bad dream. This is all real life. I left Billie yesterday and flew back to LA. As much as it hurt me to leave her and finish her show 'alone', I had no other chance - and I also wouldn't want one.

My dad is just as important as my girlfriend and the health level of a family member will always be the top priority, no matter what shows and tours are there to attend to and rock.

That sounds harsh but it's the naked truth.

Also, before I came her I called Pamela again and she informed me that my dad has fallen into a temporary coma, which is just a nightmare to even think about. My dad? A coma? I would have never believed something like this could happen. Not in a million years.

"Hello, My name is Jordan Lewis. I am here because my dad-"

"Your dad, Carter Lewis. Yeah, his wife was already telling me about your arrival." The younger woman at the hospital reception told me, cutting me off mid-sentence.

She smiles at me, standing up and walking around the counter with her folders.

"Good to see you. She was already pacing back and forth the whole day." She tells me, sounding very relieved.

"Oh, okay. Well, good that I'm here now... I guess." I say, following her into a hallway which probably leads to his room. I highly assume it does, lmao.

The doctor looks kinda fine if you'd ask me. Not that it matters, just saying though. She is about nineteen or something.

"I am just a trainee, by the way." She smiles again, stopping in front of a room.

"Here, I'll leave you alone now." The girl adds, walking back to where she was working at the desk.

I open the door and Immediately see Pamela rushing over to me before I even got to steal a glance from my dad.

"Hi Jordan. So good to see you." She hugs me tightly. Tears covering her face.

"Hey, It's okay. I came as fast as I could. Can I see him?" I question, pulling back from our hug.

"Sure."

I quietly step out of her embrace and closer to my dad's hospital bed. There's a few bandages on his face, covering wounds on his eye and forehead. He looks like he isn't awake, either.

I carefully sit down beside him and caress his hand with my fingertips. I look around the room and see that he's connected to multiple monitors controlling his heartbeat and stuff like that.

I never though that I ever had to see some weird wires like these secured to someone I love and care about so much. Well, at least I hoped I never have to. I guess hope wasn't enough.

"What happened?" I ask Pamela, not taking my teary eyes off him.

"He- he uh... I don't really know because I wasn't there. I only know from what the doctor told me."

I nod and she tells me about the car accident, making me tear up and hold onto his limp hand even tighter. Poor thing.

♛

I sat in my dad's room and held his hand for a little longer - about over an hour and went home after that due to exhaustion.

As I fall backwards down on my bed in our empty house - which is weird because it's so big - and slide open my phone to check everything because I had absolutely no time to do that earlier.