Billie POV
I stare at the hole in the wall, not feeling any kind of guilt whatsoever.
I'm sure it's gonna kick in once my mom decides to yell at me or some shit.
I am so caught up in how badly I've fucked up that I don't even hear it when someone loudly knocks at the door to my room.
The fifth thump takes me back into the real world and I quickly wipe my forehead and walk towards the door.
Once I throw it open I am met with Finneas' unreadable facial expression.
He starts looking around me, trying to find whoever the fuck knows.
"Billie. Are you okay?" He loudly asks.
"Why wouldn't I be?" I question, shaking my head and walking away from him to pick up my phone and as expected, the screen looks like one big wreck.
I angrily breathe out, examining it and swiftly sliding it into my pocket before my brother can see it.
I walk to the bed and throw myself down onto the mattress, wanting to forget everything my life lead to.
I slowly start drifting off until I feel Finneas' presence beside me. I decide to ignore him and relax more and more into the soft sheets.
"You wanna explain to me why there's an enormous hole in the goddamn wall?" He calmly asks, lowering himself into the empty spot next to me.
"What hole?" I ask, acting as if I didn't just create that thing.
"Stop."
Silence.
"You know I won't be mad at you and no matter why you did what you did, I will probably understand your matter of anger." He explains.
"Yeah right, 'Probably'."
"'Surely' is what I mean to say."
"Finneas, you will never understand. You and Claudia have the picture perfect, healty, representative relationship that I will never get to truly have." I say honestly with my head still pressed up into the pillow.
"Why are you beating yourself up over something that's so not true?"
"It is the truth!" I yell, shooting up into a sitting position, finally facing him.
Finneas doesn't say a word. Instead, he scoots closer to me, opening his arms and softly pulling me into his warming clasp that feels like home.
Almost instantly my tears start streaming down my face, soaking his well-combined shirt until it starts to become see-through.
Why is every person in my life so good to me when I am the complete opposite to them?
"Now do you want to talk or are you gonna throw the TV next?" He whispers into the side of my neck.
"Nah, you're next if you don't stop." I reply.
We share a few chuckles before he softly grabs my head and lifts it up so he can look at my eyes.
We stare at each other for a second until I decide it's the perfect moment to crack a joke.
"Are we about to kiss right now?"
That one sentence is enough to send both of us into a fit of laughters.
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Therefore I am Yours | Billie Eilish - Watty Awards 2022
Fanfiction"Let me kiss you." she says, the paparazzi swamping the doors as the airport staff tries their best to keep them from running down the walls. This book tells the story of a girl who unexpectedly runs into the word wide-known superstar Billie Eilish...
