Therefore I am Yours | Billie Eilish - Watty Awards 2022

88. KEPT INSIDE - THE END

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Jordan POV

Awe is all that comes to my mind when I look at what's in front of me. Billie, thousands of crying faces and gorgeous melodies she and her brother have created with nothing but their bare hearts.

What else could make you as speechless as I am right now?

I notice Billie staring at me. Something is definitely running through her mind and driving her crazy. I wonder what is might be.

Also, I start feelling more and more eyes find their way onto me. People are screeching, waiting for whatever it is that's about to happen. Not even I know.

Suddenly the outro starts fulfilling my ears. Beautiful sounds flow around the whole arena, blessing every human's soul in the most beautiful way possible.

"goodbye" has always been one of my favorite creations. From the moment I've first heard it and saw the way it was put together. Genius.

"Listen!" My girlfriends voice speaks up over the accumulation of songs.

Then, everyone's attention finds their way back to Billie.

"I haven't been honest to you and it rips me apart. It truly does. So..." She loudly starts, turning back to look at me while hardly trying to talk louder than the mass.

Maggies arms tighten around my shaky, unstable body, keeing me comforted.
Billie seems to be making an announcement or something... what did I miss?

"I'm sure some of you have already kinda known for quite some time... and... I had to keep it private for the most, but I'm sick of this whole hiding-bullshit." She continues, letting the tension build continuously.

She is now full-on facing me. With her whole body.
Both of her hands tightly wrapped around the mic in the middle of the stage.
Finneas has put his guitar down by now and is just as surprised as everyone else, awaiting his sister's plans.

Tears start welling up in her eyes as the whole room probably makes people from far away assume it's some kind of wild animal cage.

Billies left arm removes itself from the microphone and her hand turns into a pose that looks like she's ready to intertwine it with someone else's.

"Jordan... Would you please...?"

Me? Huh? But...

I confusedly snap out of my trance and turn around, facing Maggie and looking at her expectantly.

"I think she wants you out there." Billie's mom tells me, letting me go and looking at me in a reassuring way.

"But the- the people." I stutter.

"Just go." She whispers, putting her hand on my shoulder.

I have no clue what Billie wants all the noisy and eager people to witness right now... She always told me she wanted to keep this a secret. Us a secret.