Therefore I am Yours | Billie Eilish - Watty Awards 2022

29. RUINED (18+)

Billie POV

I finally push my middle and ring finger into Jordan's entrance and a loud pleasured scream echoes through her room.

"Does that make you happy, Bab-" My sentence gets interrupted by the door to her room flying open.

"Where are you gu-"
"Oh my g- god. I- I didn't see anything." Finneas stutters loudly, shuting the door right away as he realized what he has just barged into.

No. No. No. No.

I rapidly jump off of Jordan and pull my hand back out, the look on her face showing a shocked expression.

"Fuck, Jordan." I bite the tip of my finger, looking at her.

"I am so sorry!" Finnes yells from outside of the room.

"Fuck off, Finneas!" I yell back, extremely bothered.
"Put your clothes back on, baby." I say, stading up and collecting the clothes that I threw to the ground earlier.

I hand Jordan's stuff to her and she puts them on, not saying anything.

I get dressed completely and sit down next to her on the bed.

"I am going to finish what I started, okay?" I say and place my hand on her thigh softly.

"But Billie, he saw us..." Jordan panics.

"I know. I know. But..." I look to the ground.
"He knows me like no one else does. It's fine. And he probably didn't see you, Baby. He won't tell anyone." I say as I try to reassure her that everything is okay.

Bad things happen but that's what life is about. If everything went the way it should, what would be there to fix?

"Come on, Let's go eat something." I hold my hand out to my girlfriend and she takes it.

We leave her room and walk out into the hallway.

"Don't worry, okay." I say and we walk down the stairs into the living room where Finneas is waiting.

His hands nervously shake and he turns around to face us.

"Girls, I-"

"Just stop, okay." I cut him off as I sit down.

"Billie, You wanted to go eat something so... What are we doing?" Jordan asks from behind us.

"How about we all go to Chipotle and get something." Finneas suggests.

"You drive." I call out.

"Okay, Yes." Finneas says sighing.

"Don't argue with me. Not today." I snap back.

"Billie I didn't mean to. I re-"

"Finneas! Stop! Just leave me alone, okay?! You have no idea what you've just ruined!" The anger that I have been holding in suddenly overtakes me and hurry to get outside to my car, grabbing my keys along the way.

I hear him coming after me and I stop dead in my tracks. I see Jordan coming out as well.

"Billie, I'm really sorry. Now give me the keys or do you wanna drive?"

"I'm not giving you my dragon. I changed my mind." I say and attempt to get in, but i realize that I left my rings on Jordan's nightstand.
"Fuck. Be right back." I call out and sprint back in.

"What?" Jordan yells.

"My rings!"

I hear Finneas mumble something but I couldn't quite hear.

After I got them I go back out and get in the car.

Jordan sits in the back seat with Fin and I start to drive.

"Jordan." I see Finneas turn to her.

We are waiting at a red light.

"Leave her alone." I say angrily, looking at him through the rearview mirror.

"It's okay, Bil." Jordan says calmly.

I sigh and he continues.

"I want you to know that I am deeply sorry. I am ashamed of myself and I didn't mean to ruin that for the both of you. I really didn't." He whispers to her.

"It's okay, Finneas." She says and turns to look out of the window.

She is embarrassed. I just feel it.

We reach Chipotle and I drive up to the "counter".

"Welcome to Chipotle, may I take your order?"

*TIME SKIP*

We decided to eat at our house and drove back.

We arrive and sit down in the dining room, joining our mom and dad.

"Hey guys, what were you doing today? Did you have fun." My mom asks as we sit down.

"Yeah. It was fun." Finneas says as he unpacks his meal, giving us a quick, weird glance.

"Yeah, we were in the pool, damn. That thing big as hell." I excitedly tell, making Jordan chuckle.

Jordan POV

We start eating and I notice Billie's hand touching my leg from time to time but I just ignore it.

We continue to eat but she won't stop. Not that I care but I just wonder what she wants.

"You good?" I ask her quietly as I lean down to take another bite of my food, looking over to her.

"Hm?"
"Oh, can't I touch you?" She asks jokingly.

"You know you can." I smile.

"So I thought." She says and grabs my leg fully, making me jump a little.

"Billie!" Maggie says.

"What?" Billie says back with a shocked expression.

"Be careful. We are eating."

"I am just touching my girlfriend's leg. Am I not allowed to do that?" She asks rhetorically.

"I'm sorry, Billie. Just don't be chaotic."

"Can anyone in this house just let me love my girlfriend for at least one. fucking. day?!" Billie calls out, letting her fork drop, leaning over backwards in her chair with her arms crossed.

"What do you mean?" Patrick asks.

Finneas starts to act nervous as well, he's not a very good actor.

"No. Nothing... just- Just forget what I said."

"Hey." I tap Billie on the shoulder.
"Do you want to talk?" I asks because I know she has to get quite some things off her chest.

She sighs.

"Yes."
"We'll be right back." Billie tells everyone at the table as they just look at us confused.

We walk into the corridor and I wait for her to start.

"I- I'm sorry, Jordan. I'm sorry that I am freaking out the whole time I just- I wanted this to be perfect. For you. And now I feel like he has ruined ev-"

"Hey! Don't apologize for something you are not to blame for." I put my arm on her jaw and turn her head towards me.
"I love you. And today was amazing even though..." I stop.
"Just forget about it, okay. For me?"

Billie looks at me with worries in her pearly eyes and the corners of her mouth turn upwards.

"Yes. Thank you, baby." She just smiles at me and we go back to her Family.

"So, everything's good now?" Patrick asks us.

"Yes, I just don't wanna talk about it." Billie looks at me.

"Good then. Eat your stuff now." He jokes.

[Yes, I know... I published twice today but I just thought whoever reads this trash deserves to have more :D ]