Therefore I am Yours | Billie Eilish - Watty Awards 2022

39. QUIT TALKING SHIT

Billie POV

We are on our way to get Zoe right now. We're all packed up in the tour bus again, ready to show the people what real music sounds like. Jordan has been acting really nervous this whole time. Although we have just been on the road for a few ten minutes, she seems really edgy. I don't know what it is. Maybe everything just came crashing down but It could also be one specific thing.

I stand up from my seat in the kitchen and walk over to her laying on the couch next to Finneas. Her eyes are closed and her hands are placed on her stomach. I sneak up to her and lay down with my chin on her stomach, laying down between her legs. Jordan wakes up and looks down at me with a smile spreading across her lips right away. She starts to caress my head softly.

"Hey. What's bothering you, hm?"

Her smile falls.

"Nothing, I am just... I don't even know."

I put my hands around her neck to mess with her, spreading my arms across her body.

I see Finneas side eyeing us but I don't mind his piercing eyes. Claudia is on her phone next to him right now, scrolling around on some app.

"Stop, Baby." Jordan whispers seriously, nodding her head into Claudia and Finneas' Direction.

"No." I say, sitting up and laying next to her, pulling her on top of me fully, grabbing onto the back of her head with my hands in her hair. I lick my lips and my eyes fall down to her lips.

"Stop." Jordan whispers again but smiling this time.

"Make me-" My sentence is cut off by the bus stopping.

A few seconds later the door opens and I see that Zoe ist stepping in with a book bag on her shoulder and a smile on her face.

"Hi guys." She says.

"Hey Zoe!" Finneas calls out with Claudia joining.

"Hello." Jordan says quietly, ignoring to look at her.

What's wrong?

"Come here, cutie." I say, standing up and pulling her into a hug.
"Now we're complete, fuck yeah."

I sit back down and take Jordan's hand in mine, swinging it around while smiling.

"Here, that's Jordan. I told you a lot about her." I tell Zoe while looking at my girlfriend with joy written all over my face.

"Yeah, sure. Nice to meet you." Zoe says.

"You too." Jordan forces a quick smile and I just know that's not her real one.

"Is everything okay?" I whisper to Jordan, leaning forward on the sofa while Zoe is sitting down next to me, turing on her phone.

"Yeah. I'm good, baby. Don't worry." She looks up at me and right back down.

I grab her by the jaw and force her to look at me again.

"No. You're not, Jordan." I say, wrinkling my brows.
"You know you can tell me everything, I just don't know why you're not talking to me right now." I let go of her hand and walk into the kitchen, leaving the room. I have to admit, I'm a little mad.

The door opens and I see Jordan standing there, looking at me. She walk over to me and wraps her arms around me, placing her chin on my shoulder and watching me pour some water.

"I'm just a little nervous about everything, Billie." She says quietly.

I put down the bottle swiftly, breathing out heavily.

"But I don't get why you just don't tell me. That's what I am here for, baby. I only want you to be comfortable and happy but when you're just shutting up about things, I don't know how to help you." I turn around in her arms with my glass.

"I know. I'm sorry. I don't want to be demanding."

"Okay, so what is it!" I take a sip from my water.

"Zoe. I don't know what but there's something between us that doesn't seem like it's working. She doesn't like me."

"What? No. She does. Don't be silly."

"Okay. I guess it's just me." Jordan says defeated, letting go of me and leaving the kitchen.

"Hey!" I pull her back to face me.

"No. It's okay that you think that. Let's see what happens and we'll see, babygirl. I love you." I Kiss her hard, pushing her against the wall behind her. After fifteen seconds we pull apart and Jordan looks to her left and her smile disappears.

Zoe is looking at us. I want their 'problems' to go away but I don't even know what's going on. I wish we knew.

*LITTLE TIME SKIP*

To make my girlfriend feel better mentally, I sent my mom to go get some food while we had a break from driving and she brought us a bunch of juicy burritos. Hell yes.

"Thanks Momma!" I jump up and down excitedly, taking the Taco Bell bag from her and sitting down at the Kitchen Table with everyone else following behind, hungry like some lions.

We all sit down: Jordan next to me. Who would've thought, Finneas next to Claudia and Zoe at the end of the table. Mom and dad aren't hungry.

I really hope Zoe won't be third-wheeling. I mean, all this past time we've gone on tour, Zoe has always been with me 24/7 and now there's Jordan. Maybe she really is mad or pissed.

Probably not. She's my best friend why would she do that to me?

We all eat in silence and the driver starts the bus again, continuing our route. I grab my second Burrito right after finishing my first and immediately get a comment from my annoying brother.

"Bro, chill." Finneas says with his mouth full.

"Let me, man. Mind your own business." I give him a death glare, unwrapping my meal.

I take a bite and a moan leaves my body, like everytime we're having burritos.

I hear chuckles coming from next to me and I know Jordan likes the sounds I make. Not like she starts to smile when I scream under her pleasuring touch ;)

"I know what I am getting you for your Birthday, Bil." Claudia utters receiving a giggle from me.

Zoe is actually the only one that hasn't said anything this whole time. That's not the way I know her.

Her phone starts ringing and she stands up, excusing herself.

"Oh, I gotta take that. Be right back." She leaves to go to the living room of the bus.

Jordan POV

"Anyone want some water?" I ask after standing up to go to the kitchen for something to drink.

By the way, we have already reached our destination and Maggie and Patrick went to the hotel to check in for us so later we can just go to our rooms and not have to wait for any longer.

"Just a water, thanks J." Claudia speaks.

"K." I leave them alone and step into the tiny kitchen, opening the fridge and looking for the water. I grab the bottle and open it, quickly taking two glasses. I open start pouring and I hear a muffled screech break the silence.

The fuck?

I moderately open the door that leads to the living room and see Billies friend speaking on the phone. She looks a little angry and annoyed.

"But when I'm telling you, Adam. I- It's tiring to see them all in love and I am just here left all alone. This girl is not good for her. She's using Billie and she just wants all the attention on her. Billie is blind for love and It sucks. Jordan is so fake."

Excuse me? Did I hear that right.