Therefore I am Yours | Billie Eilish - Watty Awards 2022

46. FOR FUCKS SAKE

Billie POV

Finneas and Claudia have been trying to cheer me up by talking to me and giving me "helpful advice", but it was just the stupid stuff that everyone tells you.

'Everything will be alright, don't worry.'

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Sadly, we can't just head to the next city for the performances because I have an Interview to give and I am so not in the mood. For anything actually.

"It's great to have you here today, Billie Eilish. Thanks for coming 'round. Good to see you." The annoying Interviewer greets me with a too-excited- sounding-voice. I am already annoyed.

"Good to see you, too. Thanks for having me."

I just want to get this done with.
By the way, I have not seen Jordan today and she also hasn't talked to me anymore since last night. Usually she goes everywhere with me, it feels strange.

"Okay so are you enjoying Philadelphia so far? Is the energy good here, what do you think?"

"The energy is amazing, man. Just crazy. Your people are really good at jumping." I chuckle.

"Nice, nice! That's good to hear from someone like you!" He points at me which I think is very disrespectful as an Interviewer. You get taught to don't point at people from an early age.
"So, let's talk about your amazing songs and especially these stunning lyrics." He flips through his cards.

"Yep."

"So what is the story behind 'wish you were gay'? Is that song about a boy or a girl?" He drags out the word 'girl' which makes me uncomfortable.

"So it's basically just about a boy who I liked a lot back then and I wanted him to be gay so that he had an actual reason to not like me because he did. He didn't like me. He didn't even notice me."

I tell him more about that song and he goes on to another one of mine. 'i love you.'
Fucking kidding me? This one of all songs?

"Well, 'i love you' is about-" I rub my scalp, looking for an answer for a little too long and he notices.

"Okay so it's about no one?" He laughs stupidly.

"Yeah, no. It is." I sit up.
"It's about a friend of mine that i love. Yeah, so no Boyfriend or anything." I basically say, not going into detail.

"Okay, so now we finally know. Thanks."

I just nod. I hate this interview. I hate today.

"Uhm." He thinks for a few seconds, looking for the next best torturing questions to ask me.
"Your friend. That girl that we always get to see..."

Please don't ask if that song is about her. Please.

"...Where is she today? Usually she goes everywhere with you. We're just curious."

Yeah right, cUriOuS. You're nasty is what it is.

"She's just not here 'cause it's early and she doesn't have to do everything I do. She has her own mind, you know?" I snap at him, a little harsher than I intended. Whoops.

I look at my mom, who is also in the room and watching the interview. The look on her face not representing how proud she usually is.

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Jordan POV

Billie just came back from her interview and she wanted to head to the airport as soon as possible, so... right now.